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Name: requiemdem Gender: Female
Interests: Ballet, cycling, reading, working out, modern dance, music, theatre, sleeping, being high. Expertise: Perfection Occupation: Group Fitness Instructor Industry: Health and Fitness
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4/13/2006
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| B: Coffee (35) L: Spinach, banana, berries, soy milk, protein powder (200) S: Chopped salad (200) D: Sweet Potato curry (300) S: Turkey burger (320) Exercise: 1 hour spinning (-500) Total intake= 555 CW: 186.2
Down 2.6 pounds from yesterday. Um, hell ya. Just goes to show that "hunger hurts, but starving works." I'm so excited (even though I know my system is just detoxing and getting rid of water weight,) especially because I'm supposed to start my period tomorrow.
I'm going to take a shower and then go to Barnes and Noble to pick up some fitness/fashion magazines. Plus I'm out of cigarettes. I know that I should stop smoking-it's awful! It helps me beat my cravings at night, though.
Edit: It's only 7:30pm and I have a strong urge to Binge. I keep trying to distract myself. I know I won't do it...but the urge is there. If I don't binge tonight, that will be 2 whole days without a binge in about a month. I am strong.
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B: Coffee (25) L: Cucumbers, dressing, squash, turkey (185) S: Spinach, banana, soy milk, berries (120) D: Acorn squash, spaghetti with boca crumbles (470) S: Kashi puffs, soy milk (110) Total=910 Out: 45 minute run/walk (-300) CW: 188.8
Weighed myself this morning. It actually wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, considering I have basically been on a 2 week binge. No more. I feel so motivated now, it's ridiculous. I was going to get a pedicure today...and then I got my bills in the mail. Lol ya, no more of that. Already went to work this morning, so I'm just going to clean my apartment, go for a run, and read and watch some movies. Yay for relaxing Fridays.
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| I have tried for almost a year to lose weight the "healthy" way. Logically, I know that losing weight in a healthy manner is the best for me, but I just can't do it. It's selfish, disgusting, and lonely, but it's what I have to do. I'm going to begin posting my weight, exercise and intake daily. Tomorrow will be day 1 for me. I'm strangely looking forward to this. I have to do something. This is it.
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| Going to the grocery store today, finally! I've been living off the shit in my freezer for quite some time now.
I haven't weighed myself in so long. I feel like I just can't do it yet. | | |
| It's days and nights like this where I feel like a true failure.
All alone, in the dark, on a Sunday night.
What did I expect? | | |
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